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God, please don’t let me ever forget…

24 Nov

My heart swells for these boys...

My heart swells for these boys...

-the sweet smell of a baby’s skin
-the anticipation of hearing Maverick try to spit out a story that he is really excited about
-the joy of getting Brody out of his crib in the morning, and how excited he is to see me
-the sweetness of Mav sharing his puppies and blankets with me
-how proud Maverick is when he gets dressed by himself
-Brody’s little dance to the learning table
-Maverick’s encouragement when Brody is sad, “it’s ok Brody….”
-how good it feels to lay next to a sleeping child
-how proud I am to see them do something for the first, second, third or 10th time
-how fun it is to see Brody chase Maverick, Mav running Brody doing the army crawl
-the magnificent sound of uncontrollable giggles of two little boys at the same time
-how Brody gets cozy and rubs his blanket on his face, to sleep
-how much my heart swells when I see them play together
-how proud I am to see Mav interact with other kids at school
-how excited Maverick gets about simple things like breakfast
-how Brody’s body shapes into mine when I am holding him at night
-how Maverick brings an armful of 3 puppies, 2 blankets, and chirp chirp downstairs every morning
-the intensity and challenges of some moments of being a parent
-why I love being a mom

My Boys are Growing too Fast!

1 Oct

Here is Mav by the new tree we planted this fall.  It replaced an old, wise shade tree that went down in the storm.

Here is Mav by the new tree we planted this fall. It replaced an old, wise shade tree that went down in the storm.

It is amazing how fast you see life goes by when you have kids, all of a sudden, within such a short span, I have seen so much learned. Brody has 4 teeth now and does this cool army crawl thing across the floor. It was only 9 months ago when he did not know how to smile or put things in his mouth or roll over. I am amazed as to what a child can teach a person about life. I wish I could record all these memories that I have during the course of a day with my family. Man, Maverick says some funny things. And Brody, well he is just entertaining to watch him learn. Even though we have seen it all before… it is so different and so special.

Maverick is doing better with bedtime now, and not AS scared of monsters as he was a month or so ago. But we still deal with it a little bit. I actually got some books on fears, one has a monster in it who is afraid of little boys, and I think he liked it at first, but now I think the book is actually stirring up something again. time to hide it.

Here is Brody, looking up at the same baby tree.  We expect to see them both blossom in the years to come..

Here is Brody, looking up at the same baby tree. We expect to see them both blossom in the years to come..

Brody is beginning to sleep better. It just kind of happened. Instead of starting to cry when I lay him in his crib, he just turns his head and goes to sleep. Thank God! And yes, I still think that women who say their baby has slept thru the night since they were 6 weeks old are lying.

I have pretty much stopped nursing which is kind of sad because I do thoroughly enjoy the cuddle time with my baby. But he is 9 months old, has 4 teeth, and I guess it is time.

I would not trade being a mama for the world, and I am immensely grateful and proud.

Inspired by A New Earth

29 Apr


OK so I admit, I watched Oprah a couple times while on maternity leave. That’s where I learned about the book, A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. It is really eye opening and makes you think about how you react to people (especially negativity) and how you spend your time, particularly the time of NOW. I remember reading about “Staying in the now” and “paying attention” years ago and have always tried to practice it, especially when with my family. Now with kids, you really realize how fast time passes, and how each moment is to be cherished. I am only on chapter 4 and have a lot more to read up on, if only I could remember and practice all that Eckhart has to share.

Inspired by a New Earth

29 Apr

I so enjoy just being with my boys.

I so enjoy just being with my boys.

OK so I admit, I watched Oprah a couple times while on maternity leave. That’s where I learned about the book, A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. It is really eye opening and makes you think about how you react to people (especially negativity) and how you spend your time, particularly the time of NOW. I remember reading about “Staying in the now” and “paying attention” years ago and have always tried to practice it, especially when with my family. Now with kids, you really realize how fast time passes, and how each moment is to be cherished. I am only on chapter 4 and have a lot more to read up on, if only I could remember and practice all that Eckhart has to share.

Brody’s Birth Story

11 Jan

So not everyone is into reading birth stories, but this is for my own recollection more then anything…so stop now if its not your thing. 2 days past due, I had an appointment for a Fetal Stress Test (to make sure the baby was thriving) that measures the babys heart rate and activity. Everything was great. Even that morning when getting Maverick ready for daycare, I remember telling him, that my tummy hurt. After the FST, I had a hair appointment (my last little bit of pampering time for myself for a while) and a lunch date with my husband and subs at Ridgewater. At my hair appointment, I again had a couple instances where my stomach would cramp up. When I got to Ridgewater, I remember telling him that weird things were happening to my body today and that I might be having contractions. He got a giddy look on his face and made a comment about it happening tonite. I had plans to goto Target shopping, but Neil suggested that I go home and take it easy. I took his advice, and had a couple more of the cramps on the way home. I got home at about 2:30 and started to write down the times I would get the contractions. They were not consistent. I then decided to lay down for a while, and whenever I would get one, I looked up at the clock and noticed they were about ten minutes apart, sometimes more like 15 or 20. Something was happening but it just was not strong enough of consistent enough to convince me. Neil had called to check on me, and I told him they were not consistent and not to worry about it. He was going to make some stops in Willmar before coming home, which would mean he would be home by 6 or so. As time, went by, I began to get the contractions more often, and then felt a little scared of being home alone, and also anxious about having to pick up Maverick at daycare. I called Neil at 4 and asked him to just come home because something was happening. In the meantime, my brother and mom had also called and I told them that my doctor was on call this weekend and the nurse had a hunch it was going to happen this weekend. In my mind, I thought that it would probably happen in the middle of that night or Saturday. Neil came home and picked up Maverick, and again I felt like things were inconsistent, sometimes they were 10 minutes apart, sometimes more or less. I remember Neil making the comment, that if he wouldn’t have rushed home he could have picked up a pizza or something. At that time, I had NO desire for food, and the boys had pizza hotdish. It was about 5:30-6 and I knew now that I was defintly having contractions. Neil told me to call the hospital but I though it was early yet. I was writing down all of my contractions now and knew that they want you to have contractions that are 5 minutes apart, 1 minute long, for at least an hour. Mine were 5-7 minutes apart, 30-45 seconds long for an hour or more. I called the hospital and the nurse said, I could come in to get checked, but if I am not progressing that they would send me home. I did not want to be sent home, especially since we had to go all the way to Willmar.

My beautiful baby boy is so perfect.

My beautiful baby boy is so perfect.

I started to walk back and forth on the top level of our house to see if that would help speed things up, I think it did. When I would get a contraction, Mav would say, “mama what are you doing?” and I would reply, “relaxing”. Ben called Neil at about 7 or so to ask if we had the baby yet…little did he know it was about 2 happen in only 2 hours. After walking around upstairs, I decided to lay down for a while on the bed, to make sure the contractions still came when I was still. They did. After about 15 minutes, my water broke. It felt like a big kick, and I heard (or maybe just felt) a big POP. My water broke and I started to yell for Neil. We immediately got ready to go by packing up last minute items and getting Mav ready to goto the farm. My contractions instantly got stronger and closer together, like 2 minutes apart. When we got to the farm, I remember Greg and Judy saying “Hi” and “Good Luck” and I am not sure if I even responded. I was concentrating on making it thru each contraction. On our way to Willmar I looked at the speedometer and saw that Neil was going about 63mph. I thought about telling him to go faster, but did not want to get him nervous. About 3/4 way to Willmar I felt like I had to push. I remember the same feeling that I first had while in the tub at the hospital in labor with Maverick. Neil kicked it down to about 80 mph. Each contraction made me feel like pushing and I felt every small bump. When we got to the hospital, Neil first went to the wrong door, which lost us 30 seconds, but felt like an eternity. I had called ahead to let them know I was coming, so when he pulled up to the ER, they were waiting for me with a wheelchair. Everyone was staring when I was wheeled thru, I can only imagine how awful I looked. They wheeled me up to the OB floor, while Neil parked the truck and got the bags. I got to my room and put on the hospital gown, all while fighting the rushes. My doctor was not there yet and there was 2 nurses there. One checked me and I asked how far I was dilated and she said, “complete”. When I asked if my doctor was going to be here soon, one of the nurses said, “the nurses deliver more babies then the doctors” which made me worry but looking back they were trying to keep me calm. The main nurse said to the other “your taking this one.” They were excited to deliver the baby but guided me thru holding back the urge to push. I did this for about 10-15 minutes, and then the doctor came and suited up. Now I could finally push…. and it felt so good. I started to push hard and they told me to slow down. With each breath I would push slowly. Finally the head was out, then the shoulders, then I was holding my new little guy. I remember I could not stop smiling, of relief to be done with the ordeal, and to be holding my new little baby. It was 8:55, and only a little over an hour ago, I was at home

A Lucky Week- Part 2

1 Nov

A couple weeks ago I entered a photo contest through a local arts organization. I was pretty excited to learn that I one first place in the nature category. Here is my photo “Tree of Life” and the write-up that I did for the local newspaper.

I was traveling solo on a business trip in San Diego, California and had an afternoon of free time. I walked down to the pier to see the coastal sights. It was February 2006 so it was a little chilly, especially the closer I got to the water. Walking along the coast, I found these peculiar trees and snapped some photos of them. I named the photo “Tree of Life”. I was intrigued by the curvy lines of the branches and the exposed roots. To me, the tree symbolizes all the paths that life can take, through the branches, but even more through the roots, the foundation to our lives that we work on every day. Even though the tree is not blooming with leaves or flowers, it is vibrant and full of life. The overall coloring of the tree and the nature around it on that cool winter day inspired me to put a sepia effect on the picture to emphasize the beauty of its simplicity.

This Old House, Great Memories

8 May

Neil and I are excited to be moving into a new house in June, but I can’t help but feel a little sad about leaving our house here on Ash. We have put so much work into it and have so many memories here…

-Our very first big purchase together in college was a coffee pot. Our next was this house in Oct. 1998.

-We worked our butts off on so many projects (as did much of our family, especially Ben and Dan).

-Neil asked me to marry him in this house on Dec. 25, 1998. He surrounded my engagement ring with candles and plants on the dining room table on Christmas morning.

-We made big plans in this house, talked about our future and our past, when we were going to have kids, what projects we were going to do next, where we wanted to travel.

-We had great times here with friends and family including our 5 year high school reunion, backyard BBQ’s, and Easter this year.

-This is Maverick’s first home, where we proudly brought him during his first days. I fondly remember all of our visitors here especially the special time with my Aunt Becki when she was home for the short time.

-This house is Maverick’s playground. He loves to walk around the yard and explore and has toys in every corner of this house. It is his territory. When he runs on the wood floors his footsteps sound so full of happiness.

-Although initially planned for the lake, we had Mav’s first birthday party here, with all of his uncles, grandparents, and great grandparents. What a special day. Maverick’s second birthday will also be the 2nd day in our new house. What a change.

This is a great house and I will miss it. At least I can come visit when we visit Uncle Joe!

My Name is Jackie and I am a Yogaholic

25 Apr

I admit it. I am addicted to yoga… not like I have to do it everyday, but I would never be able to give it up. And really, I think I integrate it into my days in a way. I started doing yoga about 10 years ago, when I was talking with a girl at ON CUE that I worked with about my back and neck aches. She said, “Why don’t you try yoga?” So I bought a yoga tape and mat and have been doing it off and on ever since. Tonite I had another awesome yoga practice with my favorite yoga teacher in the world, Toni Baumgartner. Yoga is so many things to me. It helps me relax, stay focused on what is really important in my life, and keep my body feeling stretched and healthy. Last Tuesday, I went to yoga with this AWFUL headache and by the time the class was done it was gone. At the beginning of a yoga class, the teacher usually asks you to focus on what your intent of this class is. Last week, for me, I had one thing on my mind – getting healthy. I had been sick for over 2 weeks. Tonite, I felt so great (I think the sunny Sunday had something to do with it) and my intent of the class was Energy because I really want to keep up this positive energy that I have going (again, thank you SUN). Anyways, I do love yoga and how it makes me feel, tonite is no exception.

Someday I will get a picture of myself doing yoga (I would have loved to see how funny I looked doing prenatal yoga), for now I will share this photo from our trip to Cancun, where we relaxed at the spa, and I talked to Neil into coming to yoga class with me (he enjoyed the meditation at the end).

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